From me, to you.

Is it true
I ask myself
Is it real
I still can't tell
This world of lies
Can't hold this back
The truth I know
Is you're all I got
Something so good
Can't belong to me
So I slap my wrist
Because this can't be

Your eyes is all I see
Awake or in my sleep
And my heart still pounds
To rhythm of your sound
Given the greatest gift
This love is what I lift
Up to the sky
No, I can't deny
He gave me you
This much is true
That I love you
No one else will do

And today is the day
Allow me if I may.. to say
Happy birthday
To the love of my life
You're my biggest surprise
You make me feel alive
And hopefully in time
Everything will be fine

You keep being the hope
Just by keeping the faith
And I'll just grab hold to that rope
Until everything turns out okay.

You're one year older
You're one year wiser
Just stay who you are beautiful
And your life will be all things wonderful

Your eyes can't see what my heart feels

My dearest.
How I miss you so.
The sound of your gentle voice.
The silly smile I get from your texts.
Seeing your stunning face on my screen.
Those moment we stay quiet on the phone.
And just let the world around us stand still.
And nothing else mattered.
Thousands of miles away still can't separate.
Halt on communication won't delegate.
On how I feel for you.
And what I wish I could do.
I wish I could send you letters.
Flowers.
Chocolate.
Presents.
The world.
Anything to show you how much I wish I was by your side.
To make you feel my love.
But our hands were dealt with this.
And this shall be overcome.
Love conquers all.
And my dearest, I still love you more today than any point I've known you.
Your words comfort me.
Never stop.
It keeps me strong.
So write alot.
And there will come a day.
I will stand up and say.
Be mine.
My valentine.
Until then, I will continue to wait for you.
Because my beautiful nina, there's none like you.
And you're friendship is what I miss most.
But I can't neglect everything else about your very essence.
And someday we'll sit at the beach coast.
And watch the sunset, taking in it's gorgeous presence.
Together.
Forever.
I love you best friend.
Till the very end...

You're never missed

You're never missed...
Is what I tell myself.
To be able to live life.
And to be able to stop. Thinking. All. The. Time.
About you.
And the things you do.
Even without you here.
It's like I fall more in love with you.
Realizing what you mean to me.
What it's like to potentially lose you.
Yet I don't even have you.
But it's like I can't live without you.
And truly be happy.
I fake a lot of smiles with my face when you're gone.
I express a lot of smiles in my heart when I'm with you.
Those mean more.
Those are sincere.
You mean more.
That's why I need you near.
And so I say you're never missed.
Speaking to myself.
So it may hurt.
And I can stop lingering in sadness.
But this depression is what makes me feel alive.
Because you're the light at the end of the tunnel.
Lying to myself is only hurting me.
Because a girl like you is impossible to duplicate.
Typical proverbs 31 woman.
Rarity in beauty inside and out.
So why pretend like you don't miss me.
So in the end I don't get hurt?
For some reason, my past is telling me to be careful.
But my future is telling me it's worth the risk.
I pray this is true.
I pray it's me and you.
Just us two.
We don't even have a clue.
But faith.
And patience.
And hope.
And love.
That's what we do have.
So, I pray I am missed.
Because you are deeply missed.
In my arms.
In my mind.
In my heart.
In my soul.
I can't wait till I see you again.
I can't wait to hear your voice.
I can't wait for another dance.
To find our rhythm to our tune.
In these coming days of June.
I long for a hug.
I dream of a kiss.
I desire for your love.
This love I found through my Savior.
Recognized it.
Living it.
Ready to duplicate it.
Unconditional love.
For you.
For me.
You're forever missed.
And you're not alone.
Every emotions you feel.
I feel too.
May God grant you the comfort He gives me.
Even if its temporary.
May it be enough to keep you strong.
Because Lord knows, I need His very hand to keep me from talking to you.
But in the end, I believe wholeheartedly we shall be blessed.
We shall live in His will.
We shall be His good works.
We shall be together.
We shall, oh God almighty, I pray we shall.
And so I go forward.
Taking it day by day.
Constantly keeping you in my prayers
Constantly hurting a little.
Anxiously waiting for that day.
For that marvelous day.
When we stand face to face.
When all obstacles are overcome.
And we face new challenges.
But together.
As one.
Always wanting immeasurable more.
Because we have a God can do immeasurable more.
Everyday.
And in Him, I have faith.
Through Him, I love you.

Time Holds Your Answers

You can't see what my heart wants to express.
You can't tell if I'm happy or depressed.
You wouldn't know what to do if you knew.
You wouldn't see the pain even if it grew.
You're blind to the lies right before your eyes.
You're kind but this bind is even tighter in my mind.
This inseparable connection to my past.
This fear of losing everything that was meant to last.
But I won't let it hold me back.
And I won't be determined by the things I lack.
These emotions you cannot see.
Are protecting me, to make you believe.
That every word I say is of sober thoughts.
Thinking it through till I'm over-thinking becoming distraught.
And yet I always refocus to my center core.
Who I am, what I plan to do flee from my pores.
And Im becoming everything I need to be.
So one day I could hold you close to me.
And never miss the sound of your voice again.
Feel the touch of your hand as my heart ascends.
And this high, this emotional out of body experience I feel when I'm with you is where I want to live.
So I'll take my chances and do the impossible and I'll give, and I'll give... And I'll give.
Praying one day, I may receive what is destined to me.
That place I call paradise, where it's just you and I.
So don't try to figure me out.
Just allow me to discover how.
To make my dreams a reality.
And let my emotions be a melody.
Constantly changing till it finds it tune.
And you'll recognize it very soon.
And my heart will reveal what it wants to express.
And you will be able to tell who I wanted to impress.
Just give it some time.
No, not yet. Just a little more time...

Live On

Swing to the rhythm of love.
Sing to the echoes of joy.
Laugh to the beat of the sound.
The sound we continuously deploy.
And forever we mark our words.
Infinitely soaring over the skies.
Flowing smoothly through rivers.
Are the memories we left behind.
So live on my friend, live on.

Prayers of Love

She holds the key to the lock on my heart.
How she got it, I don't know.
We weren't really meant to be from the start.
But here we are, and it still grows.
This passionate, intrinsic feelings of joy...
Overcoming all obstacles of life.
Where do we even begin to describe...
I'll start by the first days of husband and wife.
And though we don't really know through experience.
We can only imagine through our delirious examples of love.
What we go through; our imagination.
It's like an untouchable sensation.
And they can deny our emotions.
But we know what we feel.
And they can take everything from us.
Yet all I need is you and it's real.
So let's continue on our journey.
This passage of unknown.
I'm trembling with excitement.
This web of joy we have sown.
And let the love fill the air.
And spread to others around.
Let this be the only dare.
That allows our hearts to make one sound.
And together we'll change the world.
All because of one key.
Why would it be this girl?
Because I've been waiting from my knees.

THINK.NEEDS.LIVE.

They say less is more.
We wait for what's in store.
The aging signs of vanity.
Is ageless in your sanity.
Consumers eat the souls
Producers fills these holes
And everything is laid to waste.

And we ignore what they say.
We get all these things anyways.
And we fill our lives with idols.
These items' our constant battle.
We reap what we sow.
A generation lost in more.
Just another puppet with a face.

And in the end, you'll have less.
A lost soul is what you had left.
And you threw it away for rented treasures.
Just to fulfill your earthly pleasures.
So think before you want.
Consider what you need.
Or else it'll begin to taunt.
A lifeless soul is what you'll be.

YOU ((me))

You.
You are the reason Christians have a bad name.
You are the person who fails to practice what you preach.
You say things out of selfish vain.
You do what is best for yourself.
You love for your own glory.
You mask it all with an Americanized Christian mentality.
You hide it well and have gained fame.
Lost and confused, sheep are led to the slaughter because of your deceit.
You are more than just a simple wolf.
You are the Judas who kisses the cheek.
You are the snake who offers the world.
All the while, in your own mind, you are a saint.
So lost, so confused, so ignorant...
You don't even recognize it.
Foolish is written across your forehead and yet, in the mirror there are no blemishes.
Your hypocrisy is behind the black curtain as you struggle in the light.
Sooner or later, your deeds catches up to the night.
Manipulative with lies, but sweet with venous sugar on your lips.
You see it differently and justify it.
You see it your own way and people follow it.
You are transparent with your past, but never learn from them.
People relate to you, but you do not reflect the Sun.
Asking for forgiveness have become your daily diary.
Repentance has become just an option in your life.
You say so many words, but lack so many fruits.
Why are your roots coming up with weeds?
Why are your branches not abiding?
You are blind to your own life.
You believe in your own lies.
You judge the good and rejoice with the wicked.
You condemn your brothers and sisters, but party with the heathens.
You're quick to rebuke, but slow to listen.
You think you're following Jesus, but you're only following yourself.
You are the reason Christians have a bad name.
You.

Box of Shame

I'm trapped inside this temptation.
This box of sin in which I can't escape.
I try to unleash some type of revelation.
Some type of power I thought I could emulate.

But as much as I try and try, I seem to come up short.
And I write down all the mistakes to create some type of report.
A journal to keep, to avoid tripping over the same things.
But it's like my phone is set to silent and yet all it does is rings.

I seem to be at a point of hiding my shame under a rug.
But it is accumulating to the point where I can't even fake a shrug.
And I pretend its not mine.
But its built up over time.
Yet I swear its all lies.
Denying my own crimes.

And I can't fight my own battles anymore.
My body is torn up, laying lifeless on the floor.
I couldn't outrun from this place I'm living.
And these four walls starts to cave in.
So I stretch out my arms for one last attempt to fight my own battles.
As I do, I could feel the whole box begin to rattle.

And I figured this is my end, this is my doom.
And all I have is seconds to wonder why so soon.
As I feel like I'm being buried in my own disgrace.
I feel the box began to implode like some type of earthquake.
And my heart began to quiver in fear.
Who is this voice that I hear

I am here.
I never left.
Do not fear.
I was never upset.
I waited for you to call.
To help win this fight.
But I saw you begin to fall.
So I came to defeat the night.
Did you forget that you were mine?
You seemed to have lost your way on that fine line...

And I knew which fine line He spoke of.
And I recalled His voice.
I seemed to have forgotten the face of love.
It was a regrettable choice.

And as I felt His voice all over me.
I began to feel unexplainable peace.
This love I once knew is the power I thought I controlled.
Foolishly thinking its a power I thought I had on my own.

I got lost in the fine line of my own pride.
When I was in too deep, I began to hide.
But even in the deepest of seas...
You will always find me.
Oh great God.
How You restore my soul.
Oh great God.
There's nothing I want more...
Then to never forget my place.
Right here, in Your arms of grace.

Simplicity of "I Love You"

I look at you every morning
I wait for you to say those words
And even when I’m all alone and hurting
You won’t ask to see what hurts

And because the love in your eyes are gone
I start to wonder if it was ever there
And insomnia overcomes me till the break of dawn
Because I can’t fall asleep knowing you lost that glare

I see your body, you say you care, but your heart is so cold
Where is the look you gave me when you said we would grow old
Was I just an infatuation to make you forget someone else
The way we live our lives feels like unread books on a shelf

And I patiently waited for you to say those words
I’ve patiently withheld all the things that makes me hurt
I’ve prayed, I’ve cried, I’ve lied to make them feel okay
Truth of the matter is, the kids are the reason that I stayed

And all I wanted was for you to say those words
But when you did, all you created was more hurt
You said it when you were lying straight to my face
You said it as if it was going to be your redeeming grace

All you did was push me away
Now I don’t believe anything you say
I’ve learned to live like two former lovers
I’ll respect you, but I promise, don’t you ever
Tell me something you’ll regret
I’ve held it this long, but I’ll never forget
And in the end, it’s your lost, not mine
I was willing to give all of me in eternity’s time

But I’ll hold on to what you never could
My God, my refuge, the reason I am understood
You never realized what makes me strong
I pour my heart out in the simplicity of a song
And my voice is finally heard
My pain is finally gone
He took me as I am
And to Him I was drawn

Never will I look back at the past
You're still here so win me over
Time wasn’t built to last
So make me once again your lover

And say those words
But only after you show me

That you mean what you say
And you say what you mean

And I’ll be forever yours
The way it should be.