You're never missed

You're never missed...
Is what I tell myself.
To be able to live life.
And to be able to stop. Thinking. All. The. Time.
About you.
And the things you do.
Even without you here.
It's like I fall more in love with you.
Realizing what you mean to me.
What it's like to potentially lose you.
Yet I don't even have you.
But it's like I can't live without you.
And truly be happy.
I fake a lot of smiles with my face when you're gone.
I express a lot of smiles in my heart when I'm with you.
Those mean more.
Those are sincere.
You mean more.
That's why I need you near.
And so I say you're never missed.
Speaking to myself.
So it may hurt.
And I can stop lingering in sadness.
But this depression is what makes me feel alive.
Because you're the light at the end of the tunnel.
Lying to myself is only hurting me.
Because a girl like you is impossible to duplicate.
Typical proverbs 31 woman.
Rarity in beauty inside and out.
So why pretend like you don't miss me.
So in the end I don't get hurt?
For some reason, my past is telling me to be careful.
But my future is telling me it's worth the risk.
I pray this is true.
I pray it's me and you.
Just us two.
We don't even have a clue.
But faith.
And patience.
And hope.
And love.
That's what we do have.
So, I pray I am missed.
Because you are deeply missed.
In my arms.
In my mind.
In my heart.
In my soul.
I can't wait till I see you again.
I can't wait to hear your voice.
I can't wait for another dance.
To find our rhythm to our tune.
In these coming days of June.
I long for a hug.
I dream of a kiss.
I desire for your love.
This love I found through my Savior.
Recognized it.
Living it.
Ready to duplicate it.
Unconditional love.
For you.
For me.
You're forever missed.
And you're not alone.
Every emotions you feel.
I feel too.
May God grant you the comfort He gives me.
Even if its temporary.
May it be enough to keep you strong.
Because Lord knows, I need His very hand to keep me from talking to you.
But in the end, I believe wholeheartedly we shall be blessed.
We shall live in His will.
We shall be His good works.
We shall be together.
We shall, oh God almighty, I pray we shall.
And so I go forward.
Taking it day by day.
Constantly keeping you in my prayers
Constantly hurting a little.
Anxiously waiting for that day.
For that marvelous day.
When we stand face to face.
When all obstacles are overcome.
And we face new challenges.
But together.
As one.
Always wanting immeasurable more.
Because we have a God can do immeasurable more.
Everyday.
And in Him, I have faith.
Through Him, I love you.