Live On

Swing to the rhythm of love.
Sing to the echoes of joy.
Laugh to the beat of the sound.
The sound we continuously deploy.
And forever we mark our words.
Infinitely soaring over the skies.
Flowing smoothly through rivers.
Are the memories we left behind.
So live on my friend, live on.

Prayers of Love

She holds the key to the lock on my heart.
How she got it, I don't know.
We weren't really meant to be from the start.
But here we are, and it still grows.
This passionate, intrinsic feelings of joy...
Overcoming all obstacles of life.
Where do we even begin to describe...
I'll start by the first days of husband and wife.
And though we don't really know through experience.
We can only imagine through our delirious examples of love.
What we go through; our imagination.
It's like an untouchable sensation.
And they can deny our emotions.
But we know what we feel.
And they can take everything from us.
Yet all I need is you and it's real.
So let's continue on our journey.
This passage of unknown.
I'm trembling with excitement.
This web of joy we have sown.
And let the love fill the air.
And spread to others around.
Let this be the only dare.
That allows our hearts to make one sound.
And together we'll change the world.
All because of one key.
Why would it be this girl?
Because I've been waiting from my knees.

THINK.NEEDS.LIVE.

They say less is more.
We wait for what's in store.
The aging signs of vanity.
Is ageless in your sanity.
Consumers eat the souls
Producers fills these holes
And everything is laid to waste.

And we ignore what they say.
We get all these things anyways.
And we fill our lives with idols.
These items' our constant battle.
We reap what we sow.
A generation lost in more.
Just another puppet with a face.

And in the end, you'll have less.
A lost soul is what you had left.
And you threw it away for rented treasures.
Just to fulfill your earthly pleasures.
So think before you want.
Consider what you need.
Or else it'll begin to taunt.
A lifeless soul is what you'll be.

YOU ((me))

You.
You are the reason Christians have a bad name.
You are the person who fails to practice what you preach.
You say things out of selfish vain.
You do what is best for yourself.
You love for your own glory.
You mask it all with an Americanized Christian mentality.
You hide it well and have gained fame.
Lost and confused, sheep are led to the slaughter because of your deceit.
You are more than just a simple wolf.
You are the Judas who kisses the cheek.
You are the snake who offers the world.
All the while, in your own mind, you are a saint.
So lost, so confused, so ignorant...
You don't even recognize it.
Foolish is written across your forehead and yet, in the mirror there are no blemishes.
Your hypocrisy is behind the black curtain as you struggle in the light.
Sooner or later, your deeds catches up to the night.
Manipulative with lies, but sweet with venous sugar on your lips.
You see it differently and justify it.
You see it your own way and people follow it.
You are transparent with your past, but never learn from them.
People relate to you, but you do not reflect the Sun.
Asking for forgiveness have become your daily diary.
Repentance has become just an option in your life.
You say so many words, but lack so many fruits.
Why are your roots coming up with weeds?
Why are your branches not abiding?
You are blind to your own life.
You believe in your own lies.
You judge the good and rejoice with the wicked.
You condemn your brothers and sisters, but party with the heathens.
You're quick to rebuke, but slow to listen.
You think you're following Jesus, but you're only following yourself.
You are the reason Christians have a bad name.
You.

Box of Shame

I'm trapped inside this temptation.
This box of sin in which I can't escape.
I try to unleash some type of revelation.
Some type of power I thought I could emulate.

But as much as I try and try, I seem to come up short.
And I write down all the mistakes to create some type of report.
A journal to keep, to avoid tripping over the same things.
But it's like my phone is set to silent and yet all it does is rings.

I seem to be at a point of hiding my shame under a rug.
But it is accumulating to the point where I can't even fake a shrug.
And I pretend its not mine.
But its built up over time.
Yet I swear its all lies.
Denying my own crimes.

And I can't fight my own battles anymore.
My body is torn up, laying lifeless on the floor.
I couldn't outrun from this place I'm living.
And these four walls starts to cave in.
So I stretch out my arms for one last attempt to fight my own battles.
As I do, I could feel the whole box begin to rattle.

And I figured this is my end, this is my doom.
And all I have is seconds to wonder why so soon.
As I feel like I'm being buried in my own disgrace.
I feel the box began to implode like some type of earthquake.
And my heart began to quiver in fear.
Who is this voice that I hear

I am here.
I never left.
Do not fear.
I was never upset.
I waited for you to call.
To help win this fight.
But I saw you begin to fall.
So I came to defeat the night.
Did you forget that you were mine?
You seemed to have lost your way on that fine line...

And I knew which fine line He spoke of.
And I recalled His voice.
I seemed to have forgotten the face of love.
It was a regrettable choice.

And as I felt His voice all over me.
I began to feel unexplainable peace.
This love I once knew is the power I thought I controlled.
Foolishly thinking its a power I thought I had on my own.

I got lost in the fine line of my own pride.
When I was in too deep, I began to hide.
But even in the deepest of seas...
You will always find me.
Oh great God.
How You restore my soul.
Oh great God.
There's nothing I want more...
Then to never forget my place.
Right here, in Your arms of grace.

Simplicity of "I Love You"

I look at you every morning
I wait for you to say those words
And even when I’m all alone and hurting
You won’t ask to see what hurts

And because the love in your eyes are gone
I start to wonder if it was ever there
And insomnia overcomes me till the break of dawn
Because I can’t fall asleep knowing you lost that glare

I see your body, you say you care, but your heart is so cold
Where is the look you gave me when you said we would grow old
Was I just an infatuation to make you forget someone else
The way we live our lives feels like unread books on a shelf

And I patiently waited for you to say those words
I’ve patiently withheld all the things that makes me hurt
I’ve prayed, I’ve cried, I’ve lied to make them feel okay
Truth of the matter is, the kids are the reason that I stayed

And all I wanted was for you to say those words
But when you did, all you created was more hurt
You said it when you were lying straight to my face
You said it as if it was going to be your redeeming grace

All you did was push me away
Now I don’t believe anything you say
I’ve learned to live like two former lovers
I’ll respect you, but I promise, don’t you ever
Tell me something you’ll regret
I’ve held it this long, but I’ll never forget
And in the end, it’s your lost, not mine
I was willing to give all of me in eternity’s time

But I’ll hold on to what you never could
My God, my refuge, the reason I am understood
You never realized what makes me strong
I pour my heart out in the simplicity of a song
And my voice is finally heard
My pain is finally gone
He took me as I am
And to Him I was drawn

Never will I look back at the past
You're still here so win me over
Time wasn’t built to last
So make me once again your lover

And say those words
But only after you show me

That you mean what you say
And you say what you mean

And I’ll be forever yours
The way it should be.



Pain. Rain.

Everyone feels pain
Everyone has past stains
Nobody really gains
Nobody really likes the rain
Its creates an atmosphere of dark gloom
An atmosphere that leaves you in your lonely doom
But what they fail to realize is what it creates
Just like the grass on the fields that quietly waits
The rain falls down right before they begin to wither
Its like it knows when its needed, yet no one wants it either
When its not all rainbows and sun shines, just darkness and rain
Its the time where you grow just like the grass through the pain
And it refortifies your life and gives you new found strength
Things you could not handle before becomes attainable at arm's length

So when you're at your lowest and have no where to look or go to, to seek comfort

Just look up to the sky and wait for the rain that comes from the Father who comforts

With a drop of peace falling at every angle to hit every spot of pain so you could be renewed  

I pray you see that the rain is really just a blessing so you could continue to grow and pursue... life.

The Heart Is Deceitful Who Can Understand It?

That awkward feeling when everything is going well.
And out of stupidity you decide to do what you think is good.
Just to have it backfire on you and that's when your heart fell.
And the blue skies and glorious days are darkened and misunderstood.
Well that's what happened to this momentum of a fairy-tale story.
Feelings create emotions you can't control or contain.
And when everything goes wrong you stop and start to worry.
Because you know your past and how it left your heart with pain.

Because what I feared.
Is exactly what I hear.
"Thanks I care for you too.
But I'm not all in with you."
I tried to be patient and wait.
But in the end, they all hesitate.
Well, I want this to turn around.
I want my heart to settle down.
I can't control what she feels.
But I can control what she steals.
And my heart is back in my hands.
It will listen to what my mind commands.
They work separately on numerous occasions.
But one is taking charge because of ill-advised persuasions.

So, until the time is right.
Do not awaken love.
Be mindful and out of sight.
And that love will come down from above.
When you least expect it.
It will happen.
Patience is wearing thin.
But it will happen.

I hope.

New Journeys to the Crimson Tale

You give me butterflies I can't explain.
You have my heart and I am not afraid.
The only fear I have is deceiving myself.
Because with you, I feel like someone else.
Someone better than I was before.
Just hoping you're revealing, my true core.
And if this, what we have, is true. I thank the Lord, He chose you.

My best friend is who you are.

Today and forever, that's where we'll start.

And from that point we will grow.

Lovers and friends, the world will know.

And no one else will know you best.

This heart of ours will find rest.

I'll give you what's left of me, no holding back.

Sincerely hoping, there's nothing that I'll lack.

Love you as if I were Jesus and you were the church.

No need to find you, call off the search.

Because you'll be right here at all times.

Wherever your heart is, so will be mine.

And no pain, no hurt could separate me from you.

Only if you walk away from the only thing that's true.

And I'll watch you till you leave my sight.

Praying that you'll be alright.

But only God knows what the future holds.
I only know what my heart unfolds.
And what my eyes and ears are told.
What use to blow only cold, now burns with passion as if foretold.
And I can't wait for this journey to start.
The preview has been a work of art.
And I'm not the artist nor the inspiration.
Together we inspired this beautiful creation.
And the artist is yet to finish.
Piles of creativity ready to diminish.
 And become a collection for all to see.
A romantic love gallery of you and me.

And so I repeat... you give me butterflies I can't explain.

You have my heart and I am not afraid.

Chasing Nocturnal Visions...

She gave complete silence to the pain.
She allowed the idea of love to take aim.

And it was set to shoot over the stars and into my heart.
But the night skies veered it's direction way after the start.
Who would've thought the stars would dim from the sun's light.
And that it would fall to the ground from such great heights.

Probably suffocated under the pressure.
Probably just a premature measure.
Of what it could've been.
The beauty of her grin.

But all hope is not lost.
Her beauty blinds all logic.
My feelings are about to pay a cost.
But something in her eyes makes me believe this story is more than tragic.

And this feeling I get, this river rapids inside my gut.
No words can explain this telling story of my own but..

I'll give you an idea of what I fear.
I fall for you and this is what I hear:
Thanks, I care for you too.
But I'm not all in with you.

So maybe, it's time, holding the arrow back from hitting its target.
Or maybe it's time for me to chase the arrow down like a free market.

Either way, I know one thing is sure. From what I know, it's you my heart beats for.
And no matter where this may end up being.
I'd like you to know that my heart is still seeing...

You and all your beauty. No one can compare. So forgive me, if sometimes I sit there and just stare. Because its not everyday I see you and your beautiful smile. Gentle, loving, kind is simply your style. And there's so much to wait on. But it's God's promise that I lean strong. And if prayers really do come true. Lord knows, I want it to be you.

Sincerely, thank you.

To the girls who took my breath away.
To the girl who took my first kiss.
To the girl who showed me how to love.
To the girl whom I still dearly miss.

To this girl that gave me hope.
To this girl that gave me peace.
To this girl that never had a chance.
To this girl that never gave up on me.

To the girls who gave it all up
To the girls who couldn't be apart
To the girl who shattered all expectations.
To the girl who shattered my heart.

To all these girls, I thank you.
I am a better person because of you.
I look forward to learn from my past.
And give the next girl everything you never had.

Loveliest Loveless Love

Greatness to withhold
Greatness at a threshold
Waiting at the front
Exposing the grunts
Frustration, frustrations...
There's always complications
Why do we play this game
If we know that it ends the same
Hurt...
Exert...
Pain...
And sometimes I wish my feelings were tamed
My tongue is a strong muscle
My heart pumps as it hustles
To catch up to these lies
These fictitious feelings inside
The heart is deceitful
Incurable...
Who can understand it
I was told to comprehend this
But I fall into its trap
It's sticky web that overlaps
And my mind consumed by you
Entertaining my eventual doom
Falling in love with love
Impossible to get rid of
This notion busting in
Emotions exploding within
Too much for my heart to handle
I ask you blow out the candle
And leave this potential love alone
My love for you seeps through my bone
It's not good for me to love this much
And have you love like a mild crunch
Bite harder, I plead
But the love already bleeds
And no aid could help this
No truth, no hug, no kiss
It's dead at the door
Laying there on your floor
Greatness...
Greatness.

Lovelost

My heart is frozen in time. In time I find. It cannot be fine. But rather lost in rhyme. An unsolved crime. Repeated in lines. Time after time. Causing these eyes to be blind. Bind and confined in between the signs. I sighed and I whined, no fruit ever shined. So I began to lie to hide my mind and tell the world it'll be fine. Reality is my heart is still frozen in time...

Stolen

Give me my heart back
You stole it when we locked eyes
And every second I looked
You took another piece from inside
And every moment we touched
And every hour we talked
And all the days we known
From the times we walked
And the friendship we built
And all the weeks we filled
Nothing compares to this
And yet this, is but stilled
Suspenseful in time
Lost and in binds
Fine...
I'll search and find
Where it all went wrong
But give me my heart back
It's been missing for so long

Miss Lane

Breaking the mold of who they want you to be.
Taking control of your own destiny
Making sure you hold true to your ground
Having confidence no matter whose around

Your glamorous walk, your stylish fashion
Yet your humble yourself with other passions
And no one knows why youre so unique
Because its more than your beauty that you release

When you walk into a room, you shine with silence
Could it be that your presence defies all science
Or is it that people see more than the surface
They can see your heart and how it lives with purpose

And it's something's haters are gonna hate
But its something the rest of us appreciates
So if someone tries to inflict pain
Just keep on floating in your lane
In the end, keep doing what you do
No matter what life may throw at you.

DEFINE:beautiful

Beautiful: some define it as exciting aesthetic pleasure

But honestly, it's your beauty that sets the measure

For your kindness and your love are what sets you apart

Your bright eyes, your gentle smile, your caring heart

Young and lively, you'll forever be
No matter if it's with him or with me

So stay beautiful is all I ask
Don't hide behind any mask
Show your face to the world
You're a beautiful, one-of-a-kind girl

SMH...

This time I won't hesitate
In this moment I lay it on the line
Every thought I meditate
Involves you with me in my mind
And the sun could set
And the sun will rise
It wouldnt be the same
If you're not by my side
So I come to you
With my heart open wide
Theres nothing to do
But to stare in your eyes

In this moment I'm frozen
And there's no other time
To tell you, you're beautiful
So won't you be mine...

Friend Zone

I could scream my lungs out
And I could use all the words in the world
Put them together to form a passionate route
And direct it straight towards a girl

Who's delicate eyes tells the truth
Who's beautiful smile resembles you
But i would never tell you the honest truth

The fear to lose you as a friend
The notion of awkwardness at your end

So, I'll redirect the letter straight to me
So I can be with be with you, but you without me.

And so it shall be... But my dream of us shall never cease.

Waiting to Be that City on a Hill Shining His Glory

When the sun rises. There He will be. And when the sun sets. There we will see. If darkness is the absence of light, then this world has seen with sight. And to those who believe with faith will be blessed with His grace.

And if the moon reflects the sun. Than we too, shall reflect the Son. Who was, and is, and still to come. Let us not lose feeling becoming numb. For if the darkness shall come, we shall shine the light of Christ. Rest in the shadow of the cross and where we shall wait to fight. 

Freedom! is our battle cry through any pain. For to us to live is Christ and to die is gain. And He is our strength, our light in the dark. His word is our sword for any journey we embark. But we must not fear, but go. Having faith and boldness flow. 

This is what I plea. To love your God eternally. And to love your God, you must flee... from your comfort zone, and love others with everything.