The Heart Is Deceitful Who Can Understand It?

That awkward feeling when everything is going well.
And out of stupidity you decide to do what you think is good.
Just to have it backfire on you and that's when your heart fell.
And the blue skies and glorious days are darkened and misunderstood.
Well that's what happened to this momentum of a fairy-tale story.
Feelings create emotions you can't control or contain.
And when everything goes wrong you stop and start to worry.
Because you know your past and how it left your heart with pain.

Because what I feared.
Is exactly what I hear.
"Thanks I care for you too.
But I'm not all in with you."
I tried to be patient and wait.
But in the end, they all hesitate.
Well, I want this to turn around.
I want my heart to settle down.
I can't control what she feels.
But I can control what she steals.
And my heart is back in my hands.
It will listen to what my mind commands.
They work separately on numerous occasions.
But one is taking charge because of ill-advised persuasions.

So, until the time is right.
Do not awaken love.
Be mindful and out of sight.
And that love will come down from above.
When you least expect it.
It will happen.
Patience is wearing thin.
But it will happen.

I hope.