Inner Death

My fist is clinched and I'm ready to fight

My enemies will battle until I ignite

Win this war with my heart in my hand

I will struggle till I die, no dying is planned

So I keep on moving and let myself in

Got to give myself some time before I begin

My mind is racing, my heart is depressed

My hand is stilled like water, where movement is less

Forward motion no time like today

Your breathing stops, your body decays

God it feels like an empty win

Walls form full of my sins

You can say not another word

Someone stole it, call it absurd

I know I was someone you can trust

The deception I gave can never be just

My self-righteous lies should never be saved

Like a pharisee who pretends to be honest and brave

So the story ends with no ending at all

No new beginning, no summer or fall

Im forced to face all the pain that I caused

Winter nights that rewinds or just paused

Here I am with nothing in my hand

I lost my heart, its sinking in sand

Oh these moments, I wish you were here

Regrets I’ve made, oh I wish you were here

Now its been forever and a day

The feelings the same, only pain

This war was intended for not an inch of mercy

I cried out to God for my emotions are bursting

Die young and save yourself is what i heard

I hate to believe it, but its sounding less absurd

Can you hear the screams from all around

It's the only noise that's making a sound

Like a pharisee

I thought I could be

Everything

Clearly, I am nothing

Clearly, I need something

I'm losing my mind

Is the cross at a distance a sign

Figure this out before I run out of time

Im starting to see the narrow fine line

Man needs to be saved

Jesus Christ is everything